Weekvlog#17 Breaking up! The pain of saying goodbye

Every blogger will make a cry vlog.. A video where he or she is crying on camera.. So this week it’s my turn. Sometimes breaking-up is more difficult than starting something new. I know that there is no death.. After death, comes a rebirth. So I know every end, is a new beginning.

This is my first vlog since I am back from Brazil. Brazil gave me a huge transformation and I am in the middle of it. I show you a bit of how I celebrated Christmas and how 2016 was ending for me. I show you my process of breaking up. Not breaking up with my relationship, because I don’t even have one.. But stop doing my Ayahuasca Ceremonies in The Netherlands for now. I am taking a sabbatical…

It feels as if I am breaking up with the man who is my biggest love.. But somehow I know there is another man waiting for me with an even bigger heart… I cannot even imagine right now. Life always gives you something greater.

I have the feeling that I have to sacrifice something beautiful now, to receive something greater in the future. I see myself standing on a mountain looking over an amazing landscape. The sun is shining bright and I see a new horizon.

Even though I know this is the right thing to do… I have a deep pain inside of me about saying goodbye to my biggest love in my life. But from inside I am very sure and I feel so much strength awakening inside of me by making this decision.

Where there is pain, there are emotions.. What do you think? Can we control our emotions? Or are they just running through us? It is very much possible to loose yourself in emotions.. Even while you know we live in an illusion. I see this as the beauty of life, to calibrate all the emotions.

This makes life a full human experience. I encourage myself and others to just experience the emotions that are coming… But don’t stay in the lower emotions for too long. Take the lessons and go further. There are moments in life where you have to say ‘Grow up, lift your head up high and walk with pride.’ Believe in your inner strength. All the painful moments are there to help you. Many people only change at the point when they cannot handle their pain anymore. They need to go deep into the pain to finally listen to their feelings and make a change.

I see that there is a deeper meaning within the difficulties. There will come a point in your life where you can see why things happened and you will see that you benefited from the hard times. And as they say ‘Difficult roads lead to beautiful destinations’.

Sometimes you need more courage to stop something than to start something new. But lotus flowers also need to go through the mud to become a flower one day. For us it’s the same. Have the courage to go through the mud. It’s your destiny to be a beautiful lotus flower one day.

We are ascending to a higher frequency to bring back heaven on Earth. We are all on a journey with the same destiny. It’s a healing process for all of us. Download the heavenly vibes again in your heart. Be an example for others.

Be the light, the love, have respect, no judgment. I feel it’s my nature. This is also your nature. Be who you truly are. Because that’s the example for the World.

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Author Blog – Maria Johanna

My name is Maria Johanna from The Netherlands (Amsterdam) and I can help you in your personal growth and your spiritual awakening. I started this journey by publishing my (Dutch) book ‘Quarterlife Challenge – Know what you want in 20 days’. With led to many other things. I would love to inspire you and help you in different ways such as; writing, giving lectures, workshops, meditations. My main focus is at arranging Retreats and Ayahuasca Ceremonies.

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