In my second week on Ibiza I had so much fun! We were in the villa with 4 girls and had an amazing time. We talked a lot about being truly yourself and how this will give you so much energy and joy. Just feel and act on your feelings. Life will show you your path. Everything will be taken care of.
After my amazing journey to Peru, I was back home in Amsterdam for just a few days to leave again for Ibiza! For me Ibiza is a magical place and it’s my favorite spot to organize and do my retreats. We had workshops, had a singing bowl healing session and every morning we started with an amazing yoga class of Fraukje Jasmine. It was again a beautiful experience!
On day 3 of our retreat in Peru we had a Rapé session. Rapé is another very special plant medicine that connects you straight to the source. I was not participating in the Ayahuasca Ceremony, but I was guiding and helping the participants. We had such a wonderful time in Peru. The Pachamama Temple is by far the best place I know to do Ayahuasca Ceremonies.
On day 2 of our Ayahuasca retreat in Peru at Pachamama Temple we started with a Tobacco ceremony to clean the body also on an energetic level. You drink a small cup of tea made of the tobacco plant. Immediately after that you drink as much lukewarm water and you will feel that you have to vomit. After the ceremony there’s so much inner piece at a level I can’t explain. Very beautiful.
The first day in Peru we had the honor to create our own Ayahuasca for our ceremonies. Ayahuasca is made out of two plants, the Vine and the Chakruna that contains DMT. The combination of the plants will open a gateway to make a deep inner journey through the subconscious mind. When the Ceremony started I was first in resistance. Later on I went into my inner journey and my big message was that I had to enjoy life on a higher level.
Do you ever wonder: ‘What is my purpose in life?’, ‘Is life predestined or am I writing my own script?’ I have been changing my life several times. I always start with an open mind without a plan, but with a huge feeling of inspiration. In this weekvlog I am showing you my last Ayahuasca Ceremonies in The Netherlands. I closed 1 door but new doors are already in front of me.
It was my birthday and the kick-off for a new start in my life. I got the best Birthday Present ever!! My friends wrote their own song for me. I also started to do some sports this week. I went out of my comfort zone and did a boxing class. I believe we need to have challenges to feel alive. It’s a trap to go for certainty in your life. This can become a prison.. Growth brings fulfillment. It makes you feel good.
To say goodbye to beautiful things, people or experiences in your life. One thing is for sure. It will open new doors. In these moments of saying goodbye it’s important be stay connected, feel and have faith! Life is uncertain. We never know what is waiting around the corner. This is where we can experience the beauty of life.
I just made the decision to stop with my Ayahuasca Ceremonies in The Netherlands for now. The process of letting go can be very emotional. The only thing you can do is just to experience these emotions. Just live the emotions. It’s amazing to make a new start. Feel free and to let life come to me and follow what is meant to happen. There is no end, to nothing. Life is infinite.
This has been the most emotional week of my life where I was saying goodbye to my biggest love. Something can feel really good but still sometimes it’s meant to say goodbye. It’s painful. Ayahuasca is my biggest love. She gave me everything. But I realized that I have been working so hard this year. it’s good to create more space for myself.