This was my first experience with you and Ayahuasca. I have so much to say about my voyage.
My experience was not a joke. It was a deep, mental and physical cleansing, with all the symptoms that go with it, such as pain, misery, anxiety and loss of control over mind and body. I am still very much impressed.
Most of my questions were answered: what happens after death, my grief and why I don’t like being on Earth. Everything seemed logical; every person is a mere appearance of his or her Own Self, each and everyone is god and cosmos. All religious madness is a prayer for myself; I am Buddha, my neighbour, heaven and earth. I created all of this. And it’s all an illusion. No beginning and no ending, everything is eternity. I choose this illusion, this world, I am the creator of my existence in this role, and I have the choice to be sad or happy in this existence. It is OK to have material belongings and money isn’t all that bad. I have the right to live like a king in France, because I am the origin of this illusion.
I have seen life and death, leaving the body. I received so much information. I was also very tired and afraid I wouldn’t be able to come back. Only when I promised to enjoy life, I was allowed back. I was born and I died several times during my ceremony. I now understand that you never die, but only leave this body for a different life or another illusion.
My question is now: what is the purpose of all of this? I want to go further, I want to make a voyage without fear, and I want to enjoy, with lots of love.
What has changed in my life? I now respect my Own Self and my body. I don’t accept demands that don’t contribute to me. I see Man in his origin, vulnerability and need for love and understanding. I love this life and the people surrounding me. I feel young and fit again, no pain. I’m able to sleep again, very deeply.
Maria Johanna, I thank you for spending so much time with me, and I thank the loving nurses that surrounded me with motherly care and love.
See you soon