In Grolloo I had a wonderful time with Magnus from Norway, who had a great Ayahuasca journey. He found out that his mind is controlling his body and learned that he has to take control over his body. The next morning in the Tobacco purge ceremony he had another great experience. He was vomiting a lot, but after the ceremony he discovered that he didn’t need his glasses anymore, because he could see very clear without it! He was very surprised about the healing effect of the tobacco and we had to laugh about it because he just bought new glasses! We also went fishing! I felt like a kid again, just playing with my friend in the wood and near the water.
Back home in Amsterdam I went into a process myself. After 4 days of guiding ceremonies and also drinking small doses of Ayahuasca with the group, something was happening to me. I was waking up one morning and had a very strong feeling to go to the beach. So I left my phone at home and just went! After a nice walk I sat down in a café and read the letter that I wrote to myself a few days before. It was all about my situation at that moment. Then, I turned all the sentences around and confronted myself with the outcome of this. I can recommend this to everyone. Because we are all one, the universe is all one, everything you say about others is only telling something about yourself. By turning around things you wrote about others or your situation, you gain a lot of clarity about yourself and your behavior.
We also visited the new house of my lovely friend Yasmina. It’s a great place! A penthouse on the 23th floor with a fantastic view over the city centre. We both have the intention to organize Ayahuasca ceremonies at this location, and we are looking very much forward to this!
I was wondering why I was feeling so good….and then I found out that it was exactly 3 years ago that I started mariaJohanna.com. I watched the first video that I made about Ayahuasca and thought about the road I took. All the way from writing my book, The Quarterlife Challenge until now; working with Ayahuasca. What an amazing journey.
When I started MariaJohanna.com I went to Bali and lived there for 4 months without a plan and I feel the same way at this moment. I take the actions that I feel, but I have no idea where it will take me. I trust in life, that it will bring the right things to me. I just experience. Even when things don’t seem to work, I trust that something better will come.
I also feel the same way about my trip to Ibiza. I will leave in a few day and I’ll stay there for one month! But I have no idea or plan what I’m going to do all this time on this beautiful island. I even don’t know anymore why I have decided to stay there for such a long time! I have some work to do, but there will be so much time left. I guess I will meditate a lot and be in peace. I would also like to meet people, open minded and spiritual people and have deep connections. And most important ….just be with myself!
Let’s see what will happen next week…?